Sometimes

Sometimes I will miss somebody very much...
Sometimes I will blame myself why being useless all the time ....
Sometimes I will blame myself why born to this world to get myself suffered....


I won't admit my defeat...I will stand up and fight against this doomed life...
I WON"T BE DEFEATED!!!!!!!!!!

觉悟...

应该是时候醒了吧??你还没遇到真正对你好的人...
现在这一切都是假的...都是幻觉...
我想我没资格拥有爱情.....
当然了...像我这种小气...不帅...又霸道的...会有人欣赏??


是时候醒了...已经很"迟"了

我不再需要任何人...

今天呢...说不上为什么...心里总是不舒服的...
接着...想找人陪...也不知要找谁...因为...心里总是觉得跟人信息时...
他们总是敷衍我...


刚驾着车...也不懂去哪儿...
经过我常去的河边...就在那儿坐着...
心想...待会该找谁陪我呢?
心里突然有种奇怪的感觉...也很熟悉...
原来是"孤独"啊....


原来孤独的感受...是很可怕的...今天我第一次感受到...
不过...我会将这感觉收起来...
当需要人陪时...就想起这感觉...

以后不会再需要人...自己才是最好的伴侣...

这样就够了...

能够知道你近况...
能够一起说笑...
能够一起玩...


也许现在继续这个样子就够了...
直到现在的你是开心的...
我能够专心地应付我的考试了...^^

我在寻找...能够安定我心的居所...

不知何时...我们相遇...
不知何时...我们谈心...
不知何时...我们关系比一般朋友亲密...
不知何时...我爱上了你...
不知何时...我们有了误会...
又不知何时...我们连说话的机会都没了...


爱上你是一种幸福...也是我跌入心里的无底深渊...
变得无法自拔...
说放弃...又谈何容易??
一旦爱上...就不可能那么容易放开...


但我知道...你只是我爱情路上的一个过客...
过客终须也要路过...

而我也在寻找....能够安定我心的居所...
但是...我能够找得到吗?
而我找到时...你会回头看一下吗?


我找到时...又是何时呢??

原来我还没准备好...

这段时间我一直以为...我真的能够忘了...
原来她在我心里....有着很深的地位...
我还是会偷偷打探她的消息...
会偷偷望着她...
还会偷偷心里有点吃醋...


今天最后一天上学...
我也不懂该如何说...
虽然我们渐渐有说回话...
不过我不会再前进...
我会呆在原地...
祝福....她永远...
开心...幸福...

我"病"好了

这几天~没心酸酸~~没偷偷看~~也没去想她~~

苏少彬已经重生~^^我的病好了!!!!!

接下来就是考试!!在这里为朋友们加油!!!!

还有跳好我的舞!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

失望~~

我真的...
对你们彻底失望了...


我已经无法相信你们了...
我以后不会再那么笨了....
我答应我自己我会对我自己好点了....
以后也不会傻傻的了.....

累了....

最近...真的太多事发生了...
和家人吵...
和朋友吵....
刚车子还被摩托撞到~妈的!!
我的曾祖母又在昨晚去世了...

我很想对人说我很辛苦...
但是那种累和那种心痛...
有谁能够明白呢???

我受够了!!!!!!!

我今天看清楚你们了!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!一个两个只会帮她那个没脑的!!!!!!!!!!!!
你们这些野蛮人....有没有想过我的感受!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


我好生好气地对她说话~~换来的是被骂？？？？！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！
我不会再相信你们了！！！！！！！

Hope he can get well and wake up soon ~~

Today we're went to Penang to visit our fren...Tommy Koay ~He was accident by a car who drove by a BITCH!!!!!And after he knock down Tommy he ran away from the incident ~ WTF!!!!!!!!!!

And fortunately...His car number was remembered by one of the witness ....And finally he was caught by police ~ And YES...He is Malay !!!! As expected ~ Only the Malay could do such ugly things ~

Tommy was still unconscious in Hospital Pulau Pinang...But still...thank god he was make it in time sent to hospital for treatment ~

While he was unconscious...he now can still able to hear us...When I call him his heartbeat will increase...And 大葱 say he even drop the tears after hearing his call....


Hope he can Wake UP SOON...God BLESS HIM.....

Empty full of my mind ....again ~

2day~Actually...it went nothing special today...Even can say ... it's pretty fun...cuz we went for gym afternoon...It was my first try of gym...Damn!!!My back muscle was pain afterward...

And then .... I went to studio dance AGAIN!!I was never rest after back from gym ~ I was a little tired at the studio...Luckily my mom was earlier then before to fetch me...

When I home , At the time like this moment...My mind was full with Empty...Will I able to forget it? Or maybe .... is the fate was playing me from the beginning ............

Suddenly....My heart was remembering the dream I had before...Someone was in shadow...he told me and scold me in the word but in some clam voice ~ He said :" U are so weak ~~"

What was that dream want to told me about?
Somehow....I'm still....alone ~

原来我不能...

这一个月来...我很天真的以为...自己能够做得到....能忘掉~
谁知道...刚经过了河边...坐在那儿...她就一幕一幕的从我脑海里浮现...
我发现自己没能将她完全放下....
我不想见到她...我选择逃避...可免则免的...尽量少点见她...

但我相信...而且在不久...我一定能....忘了....一定......

最讨厌家!!!!!

今天火爆!!!!!!!!本来心情好好地被我妈搞砸了....想驾车去Summer她说不要...不放心...不放心????之前叫他试看我驾车...在那儿拖拖拉拉....结果拖到两个多月了...还说不放心.......分明是不想我驾她的宝贝车...!!!!!!!!!!!



超生气！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

Fell So Empty...

2days....is not much I could write here.....is quite normal day....but.....somethings that bothering me......make me feel sad......feel so cold....and so empty.......It's happen before earlier.....but not like today..........


I think.......That feeling.......is trying to tell me to forgot something......something that I hard to get rid of.........But I will try stay happy at front of everyones.....


I wish I could stay happiness....and "It".....

没心情...

今天考华文...作文写不完...!!!!!!!惨了...第二张又不懂能不能拿我满意的分...haizz


今天回到家...不懂为什么一整天没心情....心情很烦躁...可能是那个感觉==...我应该好好想清楚...怎么处理了.......

领悟

今天跳舞~~原本也没什么....我们都很开心...边跳边玩....只不过...今天我早回了些....变得有点无趣.....==

刚回家路途中...在车上听歌听得好好的...妈忽然刹车...在我眼前的竟然是一个受了重伤的猫....它下半身已经被碾得不成形了....我看着它在那儿挣扎....我的心就好像被刀割过到一样....我的眼泪差不多当场流了出来....我心里告诉我...那个猫已经没救了...

原来生命是可以很短暂...我们往往都不知道....当做着某件事的时候的危险性.....可能死神已经站在我们身边了我们还呆呆的.......今天我就看着死神把一只猫的生命给带走了......愿那只猫来世可以不用那么凄惨....

Confused ~~

Today's exam~~~SENI!!! We just choose a random subject and the easiest to draw...At first i thought i won't be able to draw it...but finally it went well than I EXPECTED!^^

And something I discovered a few days ago...that i was confusing about...I can't tell the feeling...Is kind of...I just can't explain it nicely...==

And Today is a Rainy Day...It fits my mood well....=)

Thanks For My brotherly Frenz

Well...Is quite fun today...or other words,today are really killing my Boring time...thanks for my brotherly Frenz ^^


We went to VM to watch the Donnie Yen (甄子丹)'s latest movie "精武风云"...Is so nice ~~

Anyway...I really have fun today....There's nothing else to mention now...I just hope we can go out like today often...^^

Nothing Special ~~

Today My woke up time from bed at 1 p.m....== really tired...but I need to pratice my dance and reading some book...


Later...my 舅舅 take me and my bro go to somewhere else to enjoy...Guess what,just go to random place and sit down chatting...But it's pretty enjoying...because yesterday was his birthday....^^

Alright,guess I supposed to stop here...There is nothing else to mention...Good Night....^^

Mid Autumn Festival (中秋节)

Today's Mid Autumn Festival is really sucks!!! Or say today is a rainy day ~~We're looking for the right timing for the rain stop to dance~~And yes,the rain were stopped after a moment....When we done set the carpet and prepare to dance , the rain were suddenly drop again!! What the HELL!!!

Anyway, we were have some fun at today.... we found a place to dance ~~ but unfortunately...there were much less people than last 2 or three years....that's a bit disappointed...and quite inconvenience for me...


And 2day.....I saw someone that I trying to forget about now ~~but it won't bother me for long time...I will get her rid of my mind...

最后...还是伤到她....

我说什么都没用了...我以为我之前的感觉已经不在了...哪知道刚刚那一刻又回来了...我很怕~我不想再让这感觉折磨我...刚刚让那种感觉...伤到了她...我真的很笨...

但...可能这也是对我对她最好的决定....我也不想看到她伤心....我会退出她生命....永远.....就当作我从来也没出现过在她面前....如果现在她在看着的话......我不希望她....看到完我之前所有的感受....我想认真地在她面前说声对不起....但是没这个机会了.........



就让这一切停留在原点..................................................

放手了....我心完全碎了...

我听到了一个很真实的歌曲,这也许是我听过所有的歌里面,最真的一个....


聽你不斷呼叫我
劃破寧靜我的心下墮
在難過　講不出愛沒結果
口和唇緊緊閉鎖

看也一話都不說
害怕連累你一生日月
憾無缺只差跟你曾遇過
給過你太多波折

寧願沒擁抱共你可到老
任由你來去自如在我心底仍愛慕
如若碰到他比我好
只望停在遠處祝你安好
雖不可親口細訴

說太多話我想說
但我還是要啞口道別
任由我天空海闊流翔去
只要你白似冰雪

寧願沒擁抱共你可到老
任由你來去自如在我心底仍愛慕
如若碰到他比我好
只望停在遠處祝你安好
雖不可親口細訴

寧願沒擁抱共你能夠終老
任由你來去自如在我心底仍愛慕
如若碰到他比我好
只望停在遠處祝你安好
多麼想親口細訴




就让一切埋在这里头吧~~

我累了....

其实，我很累了
其实，很少有人懂我。我习惯假装坚强，习惯了一个人面对所有…
我不知道自己到底想怎么样
有时候
我可以很开心的和每个人说话，可以很放肆的；
可是却没有人知道，那不过是伪装，很刻意的伪装
我可以让自己很快乐很快乐，
可是却找不到快乐的源头，只是傻笑。
我不习惯把事和别人说，因为我不习惯别人用可怜的眼光看我。
其实，我很珍惜身边的人，只是生活的压力让我善于遗忘，把那些记忆通过通遗忘
我以为遗忘可以让自己快乐起来…
可是，我感觉到的却是更多的寂寞…
黑夜来袭，周围的空气很冷…
一个人坐在草地对着天空发呆…
也不知道自己脑子里在想什么…
怀念过去，仅此而已…
其实，我也很渴望有一个人能懂我；能走进我的心…
其实，我很累了，真的想放下所有…
可是现实的压力只能让我背着这些慢慢走…
看看有多少人还在意着我，来看过我，我有多少空间动态…

接着
下拉，再下拉…
更重要的是自己关心的那个人的动态…
却只是看看，并不打扰…
何时发现，我不再爱写日志，即使有最新的日志，前面也会带个[转]…
不是我变的懒了，而是我疲惫了…

情愿用别人的语言，来抒发自己的情感…
上线，是为了打发寂寞；
隐身，是为了躲避失望；

何时
我不喜欢追逐打闹，却很想和以前一样活蹦乱跳
何时
我让自己变得沉默 ，
却很想多了解身边所谓的朋友

我喜欢在很静很静的深夜，关了灯让寂静把我包裹，却又害怕黑夜…

我也会偶尔的和朋友聚聚，
或开心
或失望

偶尔，也会寂寞的拿起手机翻开通讯录，一遍一遍的… 却不知道该打给谁、、、、、
再好的东西都有失去的一天，再深的记忆也有淡忘的一天；再爱的人也有远走的一天；该放弃的决不挽留，该珍惜的决不放手！

想她了...

今天学车...考完QTI了哦...接下来就是JPJ了...紧张==刚刚考的时候,也是有点说不出的紧张感...但是有她发来的一句"加油"我就什么紧张都没了...考完后练上山...又滑下去一次...==''真是的...但是最后都稳定了^^

刚刚补习...看到她不舒服的样子...我心里真的很酸很酸...我又不能为她做点什么...但是看见她刚刚有笑得蛮开心的...我也安慰了...

我们虽然有说回话了...但是我心里的感觉依然还是留着...那感觉告诉我...难道你想像之前那样伤到她吗?我想...我不该和她像之前那样亲密...我应该和她保持一段朋友关系...只希望她健康...虽然别人看起来我很傻...但是我觉得这是值得的....

最后一次

我真的很傻...以为这样骗她就会赶走那种讨厌的感觉...原来...是我太天真了...这么做不但伤害了她...而且还深深加重了那种感觉...现在那种感觉把我折腾得不成人形了...无论我怎么在朋友面前装开心都好...都无法减轻...但是我一定要坚强...我不可以让其他人知道我有那么一种感觉折磨我....我心里很后悔...我不应该这么自私...只为了我自己...去欺骗我心爱的人...如果有机会让我袮补的话,我会对她说..."对不起,这是最后一次了...没下次...我答应你..."

今天...我成功和她重新做回朋友...但是...我心里不原谅我自己,我曾经伤害了她太重了...这几天看到她不开心...我居然什么都做不到...我答应过她..我会守护她的...但是现在...我什么都做不到...我居然不能够在她生日那天和她庆祝...居然要延迟...我要看到她开心...就算用我一生的力量....我也要守护她的笑容...但是我心里始终原谅不了我自己...我选择...和她庆祝完生日后...我就离开...我不想再看到她不开心的模样...但愿我离开后...她会开心下去...